There are specific people I go to when I have particular problems. Not because I think other people are stupid, but because I understand that certain people are better at certain things than other people are and utilizing stuff to the best possible extent is what you are supposed to do, right? I am not trying to sound callous and say my People are tools to be used, but if you know one of your friends makes the best carrot cake ever, are you going to go to the person who can’t crack an egg for advice?

Expertise is the name of the game. You talk to the person you are confident you know the information that you need.

So, thinking of that in a reverse engineering kind of way, I wonder what my People think I am the best at.

See, this is where my brain devolves into the sniveling ball a lot of you have seen it in. I don’t think I am particularly good at anything that would be of use to other people. I am pretty sure that most of the things I “know” could be accomplished by anyone who has gone to as little school as I did during their formative years and even the things that I know that I know they don’t, I am reasonably confident they do not want knowledge on. I mean, I can pick prominent veins to shoot up in and cut crank like a boss?

Then, thankfully, a light popped in my dark little headspace.

Everybody thinks in their way and to encourage group-think is the way to the Dark Side young one. So what if I feel this way and they do not? So what if I pt these insanely complex layers on everything, it is not wrong because other people do not do this. Contrarily, it is not a bad thing if they do overly complicated things that I do not do. We all do our job, and that is the most important thing.

Yes, I know we all learned this in the dawn of our educations that everyone is different, and that is okay, but childhood trauma and a lot of weed erased a lot of the things that I may have learned from the age of five to sixteen that I should have probably tried to keep a hold of.

No matter.

It is a little thing that I was thinking of, and since I am writing at the moment, I thought I would kill the things that fly with the cool lava thing and make a point that maybe I would remember one day when I am having doubts about things.

Or maybe I just wanted to write, and this is the first thing that came to mind.

Or maybe I am really trying to avoid something, and this is the way I can do it, and that is okay too as long as it isn’t causing me or mine any pain things.


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